I Need Help

I had an accident on May 11, 2010 , an f-150 truck hit my chevy blazer from behind leaving my car messed up and me in a crying mess. That week I had things to look forward to one being my Graduation from Community College, after that accident I was left with a weird feeling that nothing seemed important to me anymore as that of my life and the life of those that I love deeply. These past few days I have been feeling hopeless, sad, I do not understand why...it frightens me to think that one day one can be here and the next they can be gone. I guess that day made me realize that one should really examine their life and make the changes necessary to be happy with themselves and know that God will approve of the things being done by them. I just don't like this feeling that I have I want to be able to continue living my life in a peaceful way, I can't stop thinking about death and what happens to one after they die I find myself crying everyday and I know it's not good for me or for my children to witness this...they ask me what is wrong and I can not even explain to them why I feel this way. Please give me some help I really want to be ok and can not see myself crying like this for the rest of my life just thinking about the same thing over and over again. Any form of advice will be greatly appreciated and if anyone has gone through this can they please tell me how they found meaning again! Thank you once again.

Hi Esperanza,

I hope you are alright, that you were not seriously injured in the accident? That you are here to share your story indicates God and his angels are watching over you.

Those feelings you are having are not something to fear or worry about. In fact, I would say, they are a good thing (Even if they do not appear so at the moment).

You went to community college to learn and in this one incident, you learned something very substantial and that is this life, as much as we worry and fret over it...will end for us all one day. Many sooner rather than later.

This may seem like something to mourn or lament but it is not.

We are all on a journey, a path. The path either leads us into the Light or into the darkness, and there is a great divide between these two paths as the Didache tells us.

Reflecting on the fleeting nature of physical existence, should not be a cause for sorrow but a cause for resolve to determine what does last, what does exist eternally.

That is the spirit. That is the soul.

Once a person stops living for a life that will pass away, then they can start focusing on living a life that will never pass away.

This is only my own opinion, Esperanza, so please only take it for what it is worth.

But thank God for this special moment to reflect on your mortality and more than this, the chance to examine your life and what is really important for you. Then moving forward from here to where you want to be.

Don't let the moment end in forgetting and going back to sleep but waking up to who and what you are and where you ultimately want to be one day.

God is calling, we only need to listen and follow.

God bless

Hello Esperanza,

Let me start by saying congratulation on your graduation from community college, what strength and endurance it must have taken for you to complete all of your courses at the college. What determination, perseverance and courage to go on. I am sure there were times when you were in school, you worried about if you would pass a test, be able to get a course you needed and sometimes you even wondered if you would actually make it to graduation, BUT YOU DID!!!

Understand that just as our wonderful Savior Jesus Christ has plans and purposes for our lives, the enemy of God does to. The Bible says that Satan goes to and fro in the earth, seeking who he may devour. When we are excelling and moving towards the goals that God would have us to achieve, that is when the enemy will try to throw a wrench into things. Not just to confuse us, but to try and stop us, he wants to make us question our very existence. Are we really worth it? Can we really achieve? He whispers things in our ears to make us question anything and everything, and he always make it look very bad and bleak.

You stated that, it frightens me to think that one day one can be here and the next they can be gone" I believe that God is letting us all know that eventually we will need to make a decision about where our eternity will be. When things are going smoothly we rarely think about our eternal life, and some even question if there actually is one. What a loving God, who will look into time for us, and realize that this is the exact circumstance that must hapen to allow us us to seek him. Although the accident may seem bad, and I believe that the enemy wanted it to appear that way, that is the very thing that God allowed to happen to make you think about needing more in your life. He loved you enough wait until just the right time, because he knew you would seek him. This brings to mind the scripture that says, "What the enemy meant for bad, The Lord turned it around for good that you might come to an expected end; HIM".

It also brings to mind my daughter, when she was about one and a half, she would alway attempt to touch the stove, I would tell her it was hot, but she would laugh and run away, I would tell her over and over, but she would not listen. One day while I was baking, I bent down and explained to her that the stove was very hot and she shouldn't touch it, well as soon as I turned my back, what did she do, she touched the side of the oven! Her next words were, "HOT MOMMY, HOT! Needless to say, although it was a bad at the time, my waiting allowed her to know for sure that the oven was hot, and she didn't touch it again. "What was meant for bad turned good"

That is what the enemy is trying to do, but he will not succeed! He is trying to frighten you with the thoughts of death, dying and fear. But our Lord says, "I know the thoughts I have towards YOU, thoughts of good and not of evil that you might come to an expected end!", What is an expected end? Glad you asked.... One that is free of fear, on that allows you to call upon the name of the Lord, accept him, reject the enemy and all of his bad thoughts and ideas and live a wonderful, loving, life in Christ.

Esperanza, our Father says that you are wonderfully and fearfully made, you have the power to overcome any negative thing in your life and that power is found in him. Simply believe (is that really all it takes? YES). The Word of God says you have the power to overcome anything and no deadly thing will harm you. The thoughts that the enemy would put in your mind of death and dying, are just that thoughts. My Bible says two very important things (1)that if we confess with our mouths and believe with our hearts that Jesus, died for our sins, confess Him as our Lord and Savior, if we renounce Satan and all of his rule over us, we are saved. What does that mean? IT MEANS THAT DEATH CAN'T HURT US... AND WHEN IT IS OUR TIME TO GO, WE WILL HAVE NO FEAR BECAUSE WE WILL SPEND ETERNITY WITH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST!!!! and (2) Whatsoever things are good, whatsoever things are kind, whatsoever things are of good report, think on these things! We don't have to be afraid and we don't have to dwell on thoughts that pull us down. We can think on things like:

No weapon formed against me shall prosper, (a weapon is anything that can harm you, weither thought or fear)
I am the righteousness of the Lord (I am created in His image and likeness)
I am wonderfully and fearfully make (God made me and He don't make no Junk!)
Death has no control over me, for my Savior paid the price (I am not afraid of death because my Lord died for me and if I die, I spend it with HIM!)
I am the son (not gender specific) of the Most High King (For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son (Jesus) for me!
The Lord is my rock and my salvation, of WHOM or What shall I be afraid ( I an't afraid of nothing cause I have a mighty army behind me)
I am the Head and not the tail (He made me just a LITTLE lower than the angels and gave me POWER!)
He came that I might have life and life more abundantly (He came to give me the desires of my heart, as long as I put Him first)

I can go on for awhile, so I will end here, but know that with the same diligence, power and effort you used to graduate, is the same diligence, power and effort you will defeat these thoughts with, but with a lot more power added to it, and that is the power of the Most High, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ,

Be blessed and watch God move on your behalf, you have people praying for you and there is no greater power than prayer!